My... erm...Journal?

So I got back at about 6p.m. and I hada blast.

I left Wednesday after class and got there at about 5. Perry checked us in and we took care of our business and enjoyed each others company. Perry's saxophone came in the mail so we went to pick that up and he brought it back to the room. (side note: Im sick of seeing Taylor Swift! *twitch*...) anyway besides the ADD. Thursday night we stayed up talking about stuff, and then we went onto the debate/discussion about religion, black culture, and our culture in general. Then we took care of business and got to bed at like 5 in the morning.

Saturday night we decided to go out and actually do something. We wanted to go to the movies but nothing good was out so instead of both the movie and dinner Perry treated me out to dinner. There were these annoying middle schoolers there. They musta got done having a formal or something because they were dressed up. We kinda laughed and remember those days. Back then we thought we knew everything when really we just looked immature. :p After that we went back to the room and after awhile we realized we both were still hungry, so we went to McDonalds to get some icecream. (by then it was 1 in the morning.) While we were in the drive thru we got the lovely opportunity to watch some drunk kid get out of the car and piss right there in PLAIN sight. YOu cant go to that school without seeing a drunk -_- lol. Then when we got we acted silly the rest of the night. We played "house" and Perry kicked the baby across the room, then we played dinosaur! I was the t-rex and Perry had to stay still and-...uh yeah I guess this is why we are a couple lol

Today, after we checked out at 11 I got the chance to see Perry's single dorm room. UH it was a mess, I couldnt help but straighten up alittle, but GEEZ! lol We hung out there for awhile laying in his bed watching spongebob, and enjoying each other. After 2 hours we got up and I finally got to meet Jane and her boyfriend. She was nice/friendly/different and all that jazz. Her boyfriend was REALLY quiet, for a minute I forgot he was there. We all walked down town and visited a few stores than got cold stone. Its to bad we didnt really get to do anything, because by than I had to go. But next time I go down there I guess we can hang out again. So I gave Perry kisses goodbye at 2, and got here around 6. The drive was cake, and I had to literally kiss my car for doing a good job. He's really hanging in there :) The only thing that scared me was when I first go to the hotel it acted like it didnt wanna start than once it got going it was fine. I think after long drives the car needs a break before restarting it.

But yeah, from the looks of it the only time I can go back to WV next semester is during spring break. Classes wont allow me to skip at all next semester. -__- So yeah, I had a great time and I canNOT wait to get outta bloom and see my baby on Friday. Lets hope this week goes by fast. DAMN going to class on Monday, Im off this farm on Friday :p

SO, yeah he is still sleeping and Im about to go jump on him lol. *plotting* or maybe I should give him alittle time, but it IS 1 in the afternoon. I cant believe Im down here o_O its weird, I love my boat and I was praying I made it down. Now for the ride back!

3 more days down here and its back to Bloomsburg! I think Im gonna go jump on him. :p

Wednesday is almost here and I will be off to WV, its so strange to do it now. Im feeling alittle ify. I mean, Im gonna see Perry when I get home, which is a week right after. But, I guess we wont have time to chill and be free, ya know? Im like praying the boat is okay too, it hasnt given me a reason not to go down there, but remember it was acting kinda funny. But my Mom didnt say it would be a bad idea to drive it. So I guess Im fine. I love you boat please hang in there for the rest of my college career.

Then I feel kinda awkward because I told my Mom (and only my Mom, we have our little secrets) that I was going to go down there. Yeah, she knows Im missing class to but she didnt say anything, she just said okay. Maybe shes just letting me make my own decisions? I dunno tho, I wonder if she doesnt want me to go, but shes just not saying anything? Or if deep down she knows that Im gonna go anyway and she just said okay. I guess she would really protest if its something that she feels I shouldnt do? I just dont know! lol Im like freaking out in the inside because I dont want my Mom to feel a certain way. I wonder if its a good idea to ask her if she's okay with that?? Or maybe I should leave it alone, UUUHH Im such a Frickin worry wart, I needa life. -__-

Then Im starting to think about our relationship, not ours personally. But like Perry's relationship with my family. Dont even get me started with his family, I dont think I could EVER have a good relationship with his father(Neither my Parents either, especially Gairy or my Dad if they knew the WHOLE story)...maybe his mother....maybe. Anyway, Ima try to bring him around more(it will be better when we have a house), maybe we could do something interactive like go to dinner or something? I want things to work....I mean they do in a conflicted way, but not the way I want them to. Then I cant MAKE them work they gotta just do it naturally...I want Perry to be able to talk to my Mom or Gairy or my Dad. I dont mean like serious bonds, but to share mini conversations other than hi or bye or any of that business. I wanna see him make an effort. It would really make me happy.

It just sucks because here, I have a guy that I really care about, who loves me for who I am, and we share so many things together that I dont share with many/or anybody. Is it worth throwing away our relationship because our families may not get along, or maybe they wont get along with me? (If I ever meet them) This is the only thing that really BUGS me every now and then. Yeah, couples dont have to be perfect, there is no such thing as the perfect couple. Just like I know I dont have the greatest relationship with my family but........uuuhhhh

...See this is what happens when I get to thinking, this is the shit that runs through my head in like seconds lol. But seriously though am I wrong for wanting that? Maybe I should talk to Perry about it when i get there, but I already know what may happen. Its just gonna get dropped but its worth trying right?

So yeah, Im at work, now got another hour and 40minutes, then an hour to do nothing than an hour with the tutor. Btw I gotta B on my Methods test, and my professor put great job at the top with an exclamation mark!!! Woot! Maybe he doesnt hate me? :p

I hate getting cramps -_- one thing that kinda sucks about this method of birth control is I still get cramps. Not as bad as high school but still, they hurt >.< And Im not taking any medicine, I dun want to!!

Uuuhh I want Wednesday to get here so bad, Im just not looking forward to the drive so much. Back when I lived in the dorm I was eager to get out and drive, but since the apartments its been relaxing. Its funny I got done talking to our fourth housemate Brittney. I HAD to ask her if her door was really open Sunday morning, because Brittany(our Brittany) has been bugging since we've seen Paranormal activity. No, its so funny though. Last weekend we were leaving to go get something to eat (Me, Desi, Shar and Bee). Well we are walking towards the door joking and Brittany was in the room getting her id, and me and Shar were teasing her. I musta said "Katie's in your room" without realizing it. Three of us were just waiting at the door to leave, Brittany comes FLYING out the room. Like she was really running and she was screaming "STOP PLAYING YAll! Dont LEAVE ME!" We were STANDING there just like starring, and she was still booking it. Then we burst out laughing. WE werent even going anywhere and she was running for her life, and was ready to go out the front door! lol We've been laughing at that since. SO yeah, Brittany claimed the Brittney's door was open Sunday morning (usually Brittney leaves for the weekends so it was odd for it to be open.) So I had to clarify things, turns out she was her. She was pledging for some sorority and they wanted her to come back here get to a coupon at 6 something in the morning. She was all the way back in Allentown by the way.

But yeah, thats about it, its funny living with them. I gotta study for these two tests on Monday that seem SO easy compared to methods. (Social Psych, Criminology) Btw I think I did pretty okay on the methods test, we get em back Friday. No but I was freaking at the beginning, I had to take 5 seconds and calm down. I think I got so nervous I made myself nauseous(like what I did at prom) I had to go back up top to go lay down...o_o and watch true blood. :p

Yup two more days left at the womens center!!! (YES) 3 hours every tuesday and thursday take it out of you, and some of the teachers there are boring. But Ima try and get an internship there next/next semester. Talking about that I need to go and talk to my adviser. I could possibly graduate on time instead of staying an extra semester( I did jump into my major a semester late apparently). But I could possibly kill myself smashing in classes. I was thinking if I did have to stay alittle longer, I could minor in two separate categories, as appose to one. @_@ I DUNNO!!

OH And the house is coming along great lookit! My room is above the garage.




As for as my hooping, its coming along. The tricks Im attempting to learn require more room. I secretly hoop in my room, and sometimes I crash into stuff lol, so I kinda just play it off. XD I can vertical hoop on my waist and go into a barrel roll which I need more room. Then Im trying to get the trick where you climb into the hoop and step out the other side. I had to put knee hooping on hold, not enough room. I wanna ANKLE HOOP, that looks amazing! Im also trying to learn how to hoop behind the back with your elbows, I need room!! I was thinking about taking my hoop to fall massive, if I can make a collapsible one. Lets hope Perry can come back from New York ^_^

oh well 20 minutes till class!!

Ah hah Phillies lost, I say that because everyone just jumped on the band wagon, and was extra extra EXTRA hype about them....lol That was mean...bad Netty. XD

So yeah I did forget to mention that I picked up a cold from my Mom after they left for parents weekend. :p

Yeah it started in my throat and it was easy to begin with then it kinda morphed. to my nose, head, and ears!

This week was pretty normal I've been busting my ass for methods. Wednesday I went to Dr. Ball's office hours to get some help, because I've been taking my own notes from the book while reading his. So I get there just in time, I even told my boss I'd be alittle late for work. So Im sitting there waiting, when some girl randomly comes outta no where, and runs into his office after the other girl left. I dunno if she didnt see me waiting or what, but I didnt wanna just bust in there and be like "UM I WAS waiting out there" I didnt wanna look like a ass in front of my professor who I think is not real fond of me anyway. So I let it go. This bitch was in there for a good 45 minutes. As time kept ticking away I felt myself getting mad. I think some girls that were waiting for him also (alot of people started showing up) could tell. At some point Dr. Ball came out to check on us then he went back in. The whole time he was out,(cuz he opened his door all the way then) I just stared at the girl who ran inside, lol like a hard stare. She looked up at me a couple of times and looked away real quick. So yeah as Im waiting another girl who was outside asked me "your waiting for Dr. Ball?" I said yeah, then she asks me "your in one of his classes?"..uuuh yeah, why else would I be waiting out here? Ya dumby -__- So the girl finally comes out and I eyeball her the whole way out. I went in and talked to him for a couple of minutes and had to leave for work. So I just saw him friday. But Ive been studying my heart out for this test, Ima need some luck tomorrow to.

As for this weekend, Friday we went to the movies and saw "This is It" Which was really good. I thought it was well done and we all got to see an adoring side of Michael. It is a shame though, I think our country didn't appreciate him like others until we lost him, and he was from here. He was so original. But we all left with a good feeling! Brittany didnt cry which was surprising, although poor Desi was in tears, good thing I had tissue. After the movie we got something to eat and I talked to Bee for the rest of the night. At about 5 in the morning I woke up feeling like crap. I got on some sweatpants and went to walmart and got the knock off brand of NyQuil/DayQuil. It was a little creepy because it was nobody out, I was real alert lol.

Saturday(Halloween) chilled in the apartment, we all watched Kevin Hart's standup. He's pretty hilarious. Then that night we went to the movies again and saw paranormal activity. The movie really wasnt that scary it had a few creepy parts, some people got mad at us for laughing because the girl in the movie got dragged off the bed and down the hallway. There were some people in there that were really scared though, like Brittany was ready to leave. lol I liked it because it used alotta mind games as appose to gore, now adays movies wanna gross you out rather than scare you.

After that we went to a Chinese restaurant and we were the only ones there. Right off the back they were wrong. We came in Brittany said hello, the man was like "WE CLOSE AT 9:30....10:30 you have HOUR..........you have HOUR!!" and we are like ooooooookay? So we go to sit down and the lady didnt move out the way so I can sit down so i said excuse me. Brittany was already getting mad, she mumbled "I dont want to have to cuss someone out". So the lady gets our drinks. It was awkward we were just quiet and eating for a bit. The WHOLE time we were there they kept starring at us. Then we started to notice like the guy looking at us, and the lady at the buffet was standing there watching us. At some point the lady came over and asked if we wanted anything else to drink and all of us said no, then she asked "You done?" and we said "no"...did we say we were done? Then they thought we werent gonna pay, at some point the lady comes over and says "you done?" again. Sharnice said No we are not done, then she says " I know your not done." Um so why did you ask?

So since we were being treated rude and rushed out, we decided to stay until exactly 10:30(which was closing anyway) whether they liked it or not. Evidently they didnt cuz the man kept sending the lady over, Brittany yelled out to them "I feel like we are being stereotyped, unappreciated and I never coming back!" lol Oh well we know never to go there again.

As for today, twas a chill study day/gotta get ready for tomorrow and I gotta get this cold outta my system. West Virginia in a week and a half =)

Yesterday I walked around campus sporting uggs. I know, what next? flying pigs?

Okay see what had happen was, I needed a pair of boots (you know to wear with tights and jeans and stuff) and I always said if I ever was to get a pair of uggs it wouldn't be the Pooh bear feet uggs. Ya know, the tan regular ugly ones. I told Mum that I would get the knitted gray ones. Cuz they were different. Well I found this cute outfit that they would go nice with and I told my mom. She said "finally!! You've been fighting it" so I took it upon myself to look up price for a pair, $140!! I'll be damned if I pay that much for a pair of boots unless I absolutely adored them. So mom gave me hers :p She has like every pair of uggs there is, and she told me she rarely wore those. So now I guess I can saw I own three pair of uggs. I forgot I stole my moms slippers, for the past 3 years Ive had a pair of uggs(just not the kind your thinking). She just went ahead and gave me her black slippers too because she hates them. (the dye)
Hey they were all free and thier REAL! The knitted ones are actually cute on me I got compliments on them the first day I wore em. So yeah... Just thought I'd put that down.

God I love this restore option, I typed this yesterday on my ipod and I thought I lost it. Here it is on the computer. ^_^

I dunno, I've been debating on if I should or should not take diet pills. Brittney is taking them, and she said they help supress her appetite. A part of me wants to, but Im worried what happens after Im done taking them, and if I do take em that seems like the easy way out? Hmmmm I better call Mom, she's probably going to tell me to leave em alone. :p

Sorry, I been meaning to update but Im find it hard to sit down and do it.

Sooooooooo Friday, we chilled in the apartment, then me Desi and Shar went to this juggler show which was really good. I was scared for him XD. So after that little entertaining show we grabbed something ta eat came back up here and talked and played the game. Brittany could go with us cuz she had sorority stuff ta do. So while we are up mind you its like 1a.m. by now we decided to do some walmart shopping. So we waited for Bee to get back and we all went. Got back in at 3 in the morning.

Saturday Brittany's family got here at 11 in the morning! @_@ Tasha had to come in my room to sleep because she didnt wanna look like the bum ass friend. She crashed at our apartment after a party. So we all got up and we hung out with Bee's sister Brandy who is hilarious, and her cousins. They brought up their dog seven. lol Shes so tiny...and bad I appreciate coco's sweetness.

So yeah...um my parents were suppose to leave at 2...they didnt leave till 6 lol. Messing around with Gairy. They got up here at 7:40 and I had to run out cuz we got tickets to see this circus that came to our campus. (Yeah other universities get Jay Z, we get the damn circus XD) But, it was like a bootleg Cirque Del Soliel, and I noticed the STOLE alot of tricks from other circuses, but it was a great show for $10. The real price of the tickets was $35, gotta love the early bird stuff. It was in our huge theater thingy, and was about 2 hours.

After the show we went out to applebees, poor Mum was sick but she was hanging in there. After that they dropped me off at 1ish 2 and they all went to thier hotel. Sunday morning (11a.m)we went out to CrackerBarrel. I said something completely dumb lol, the lady asked me how I wanted my eggs I said well done. XD Then we stopped by walmart, and they came up to the apartment and chilled there till about 4. Then everyone left. Ahh its always nice when they come up. Its funny though Perry asked me why my parents still come up on parent weekend, Im not a freshman anymore...SO what lol.Also I got back Prince(thats what they call him up here)/Ze boat. Im glad to have him back, but I have to get used to driving him, he's so heavy. But at least I have heat now ^_^ me and Mom missed our cars. Mum got him a tune up and such but didnt really fix the other problem. I told her I was going to WV and she didnt say I shouldnt go, so I guess I should be fine. And well after that Sunday I studied for my chem test that I have tomorrow X_x

As for today, it was normal. I gotta get ready for this Methods test, its make it or break it ;_; Im terrified. I signed up for methods and they told us off the back they we HAVE to be here 5 days out of the week for at least an 1 outside of class. Its the class with the lab rats, hopefully I get past Methods so I can move on to Apps for next semester.
I actually have a tutor for the class, and I notice he seems to look at my mouth when we are talking. At first, I thought I had something on my mouth the first session but I notice his eyes wondering down every now and then. o_O Or maybe its me lol, what a strange thing to do tho?

Oh well class in the morning, 2 and a half weeks till West Virigina, Perry is gonna make $1000 from the study. Oh yeah he's treating me out. ^_~ I wanna go to Fall massive so freaking bad but I think I might be outta luck, I need to know more people that like house. My options are so limited ;_; *sniff* I wanna go so bad.

OH well time for bed, I got work in the morning...and studying

So yeah, why the hell is is snowing in the middle of October, Wha Da Faaaakkk? I was freezing my nips off XD

So yup, I always wish our weekends were longer cuz........its just SO relaxing! Friday we went to bingo, joked around went ta bed.

Saturday good day as well. It started off right, because now I think me and Perry are back on the right foot again. I dunno, I cant stay mad at him long even if I want to and I just miss him thats all. He misses me to hes just not as expressive as me, which is true. Im a emotional bundle compared to him. Sometimes I forget that.

DAMN! This thing is nice, I exited out of this yesterday in the apartment and logged on to finish here are work and it came up! lol Looks like I can start from here

So since I have about a half hour left at work and my brain is goo from reading methods I will talk about SHTUFF. Its always sad to see the weekends go because they are so damn relaxing. Brittany wanted to do a game night and invite a bunch of people over but that failed. There was a Trey Songs (At IUP...my cousin goes there) and Jay-Z was at Penstate this weekend so the campus was deserted...I would have loved to go, but its a 3 and a half hour drive and yeah I might as well go to WV. :p lol But that sucks why dont people come to our school?? We need publicity, hey Beyonce how bout you come down?! So yeah Friday went ta bingo and none of us won any money, we sat next to these abnoxious guys that kept screaming stuff out. They were funny....but annoying and they kept winning hhhhmm......

Saturday game night pretty much flopped lol although all was not a total loss. Brittany told me Shay was going to the liquor store and wanted to know if we wanted anything. So we drove down there (and Shay kept ERKING me with her jokes about driving)...i dunno shes just one of those kinda people that really annoying.........................AND I wish she would come out the closet already! She is so dudeish its unbareable. So yeah Sharnice got Smirnoff stawberry/Brittney got Bacardi peach?/ and I always wanted to try 99 cherries. (That shit is powerful, just smell it and you'll get drunk) I wanna make jello shots with it. I've come to find that Im actually pretty sensitive to alcohol. Last time I drank(the party) I wasnt even tipsy, I didnt feel a thing and I still woke up the next morning with a acidy taste in my stomache. I HATE that. But yeah, I wanna make jello shots with my 99 cherries, sounds like it would hide that AWFUl pungent taste that alcohol has. Thats why I hate taking shots to. But yeah...so the bottle is secretly stashed in my room.

We ended up having game night, Tasha came up and we laughed, sipped alittle bit ta drink. We played clue/phase 10/ and Uno and we even got the pleasure of watching Tasha, Bee, and Desi dance around the house to Destiny's Child and what not. Funny stuff. Then everything kinda broke down to girl talk and it was getting really late. Tasha was having guy troubles after breaking up, and Bee and Desi were talking from thier experience. I kinda stepped outta the room to do some quick studying. I didnt really have much to offer in that conversation, I can only image what it was like, but never experienced the hurt. Plus I was dead tired and did some studying to keep me awake. They talked for a good 45 minutes then we took Tasha back down to lower campus at about 4 in the morning.
So by the time we got back to the apartment we were wide away and continued girl talk. I learned alot of where Densi comes from and it was actually kinda sad. But we all have something in our lives that isnt perfect. Like for example my relationship with my family, sometimes it hurts, sometimes it doesnt, but I guess we learn to live with it. So yeah, we didnt end up going to bed till 7 something in the morning lol. WHO HOOO All nighter!

Sunday was a chill day/ like serious chill, I still woke up and did some studying but I layed in the bed watching True blood for a good three hours lol. That show is actually really good! So I have finally found a vampire show, you know how there is the vampire phase going on. Everybody eventually came together throughout the day and we got dinner, Shar got Wendy's, Bee and Densi got Burger King and i was stuck with campus food. We already ordered out the night before, money is tight! O_- We watched the Kenndey shooting...man thats crazy stuff. They actually showed him being shot in the head, you see the blood and everything. Funny how family guy/robot chicken makes fun of that scenerio... That sucks.

So yeah, fifteen minutes and I gotta kill an hour before tutoring. That guy is really nice, hes a senior and he's so smart @_@ well he comes off smart. I hate this stuff so its not coming to me so easily. but yeah I think I aced my social psych test today, all that studying payed off. What else? Oh yeah, the custodian Carol that works here always comes in and we make small talk, (Her daughter went to Del Val Veekie) She bought me two plants, African Violets? So sweet, I hope I dont kill em o_O


And uh as far as the losing weight thing, Im trying not to stress so much anymore. I hate having to always worry about my weight. I have days where I feel fat and when I dont feel so fat. I guess I could be worse right, I could be a fuckin monster lol? Having big boobs makes my stomache look smaller too XD But really I want someone to honestly tell me what I look like to them. Do I look chucky? Fat? Little plush? Nasty lol? I dunno, the weight thing varies from people. Im just so sick of worrying about it/ if I want the damn pasta Im eating it. As long as I keep up at the gym Im happy. Im working on getting my heart rate up more often as apose to doing the same ol same on the machine.

Oh well almost time to go...Hope I covered everything? I feel like Im missing stuff, its just that time is moving so fast before you know it the semster will be over!

I wanna hoop some more! I need spaaaaaaaaaaaaace Im confined to that small room <.< I can only do but so much. I needa hoop buddy, and I suck so I dont want anyone to know I can do it until Im descent at it. Although I have improved a whole lot, I gotta show you the video Veekie. But yeah I get the hoop at my knees (hopefully if i doesnt smack anything) and I can keep it there, but Im sure if I had more room and more practice I could get it back up. *sob* Veekie, your still interested in hooping right? lol

Oh yeah, as you can tell Im procrastinating my ASS off, but hey hey hey, dont jump to conclusions. I've been studious I have *nods* I've been killing myself with methods, and well I just gotta get this reading done for social psych. 10 more minutes <.< As for this week I've been dead, Sharnice gets how I feel, last night after the women's center I went to the gym like usual. I was on the machine and litter fit like I was gonna pass out but I just cut it to a half hour and got off, I dunno why I was so weak. But yeah I was up from 7 and didnt get back till 10:30 that night. But yeah the girl Kerri is always nice enough to give me a ride to the gym after the womens center. Hey wait, I didnt get to talk about how dumb some of those girls are there:

Hokay, so, It was one night where we were talking about different cultures and oppression, and different races and all that jazz. IIII am always quiet, which is normal Im like that in classes period. So the lady is going around asking questions about race and oppression and then who does she look at (because I am the only black girl there) she looks at me and says "Well, Antoinette, What do you think?) I HATE when people do that, I guess I can see she wanted a different perspective but yeah, she called on me cuz I was black. But thats not what bothered me, stuff like this rarely happened at brandywine, like I remember back freshmen year here at Bloom the guy said a rap and looked directly at me (the only black one) to wait for me to laugh. Guess my skin color gave away an impression that I listen to rap (lol which I do) but still, dont make assumptions!

So anyway back to the womens center, there is this lady there, who I sympathized with. In the beginning she shared with us that she was a battered victim. Now completely separating that, this lady is an idiot. Im sorry, but that just the truth, and she goes on and on and on about her opinions every class (when she shows up, yeah she shows up half the time but talks about how its her passion to work there) so yeah her opinions are clearly wrong, and you can tell the others are like "ooookay??" when she speaks.

So anyway the topic was about culture, and the speaker made a point that if a woman of color came to the shelter she would be at a disadvantage because they may not have certain products available(hair products ect.). And she made the comparison with walmart here, how the black hair products section is tiny. Sad but true....I blurted out that that is true, I have to bring things from home. So that being said. This girl raises her hand...Oh Lord and she looks at me and says "Not to be rude(My attention is up now, and Im thinking to myself"you better be careful on what you say")...So yeah she says "not to be rude but, why do you guys use different hair products than us" *twitch* As if its not obvious right? BLACK PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT HAIR FROM WHITE PEOPLE, we have to use DIFFERENT hair products......I tried explaining. Come on people, really is it that hard? I hate questions like that, stop being so damn naive!

So anyway back to the idiot lady. As the discussion is going along the speaker talks about how great if Hilary would have won the election, but then she says we have an amazing president as well, who made history. Obama of course (I love him ^_^) So then this dumby comes in and says(trying to sound smart as usual and FAILING)...You know when people make thier voices higher and all that jazz...she says, "Well, I really dont think this counts as a historical moment because Obama is only half white, and half black, and he is not from African descent(this is when people proceeded to cut in) She goes "WAIT lemme finish!!" and proceeds to repeat what she said...yeah... Thats when I finally cut in because I was erked by then, and everyone stopped because well I guess I never talk. So I says "This is the way I look at it, back during times of slavery, if you were half white and half black, you were seen as black and treated just as. So with that being said Obama is black". This one girl lowers her head and says in a mucking tone towards the lady as if to say, shut up your wrong "Yiup, its been proven....Obama is black". The lady goes "WAIT WAIT!, I dunno if they heard it in my voice or what but she says "Thats not what I meant! And tries to change what she said" Bitch please, if any person didnt know Obama and saw him walking down the street, people would think he was black. It was a historical moment for anybody and everybody that enjoyed and embraced it. DONT try to take that away from us. So dont bring in that crap about him being half and half, and by the way he is of African descent ya dumby, his dad is from Africa..............*twitch* I had nothing else ta say to her.

So yeah oops... with that being said lol. I only have a half hour to study <.< UUuuuuhh Im so fucking hungry, I wanna stomboli but looks like Im getting a salad again. I dont care if I lose weight this week Ima bout to be on my monthly, and I know my cravings are gonna kick in. Its all in a matter of shutting them up.

Oh well off to look at more hooping videos, I WANNA GO TO PHILLY!!! They have dnb shows, and I cant go ;_; And I wanna go to the eastern state penitentiary. *sigh*......FUCK!!!

Sooooooo yup,

Im at work right now bored off my class and I cant wait to get the day over with. Two more classes -_-;

Also, I found that I did okay on my exams, an A in expectional individuals, a C+(kinda pissed) in Chemistry. And well I dont think I lost any weight this week but I dropped 6 pounds in three weeks. Thats not to bad I guess. Last night I came back and said fuck it and ate the rest of my twix. :D I dunno things have been same ol same ol. We were cracking up in the kitchen yesterday, but that happens all the time. Um, we had this annoying fire drill and on the way back upstairs some guy screamed "get off my nipple" lol, I love college life, when we get apartments it wont be the same as college.

But Im not doing SHIT this weekend and I want it that way(Im soooo tired class/work/everything is kicking my ass). Waking up at 7 every morning and not getting back till like 8 or 10 does that to ya. We will prolly do some apartment shopping today, and call it quits for the weekend, YUSH sweat pants for me! Brittany's planning on breaking out Monopoly...oh lord. The other Brittney left some brocolli in the fridge since the beginning of the semester and it smells like wtf, so we just have it sitting on the counter till she notices it -_- thats just NASTY! The fridge stinks now.

Um Sharnice's friend Anthony may come up for the weekend, um which I highly doubt....What else? We look like a bunch of old school gamers cuz I have the sega up here, we go hard for pacman/streets of rage/ and sonic lol.

Im kinda irratated with Perry, we've been fine all semester but I told him that I really wanted to go to one of his schools football games at the beginning of the semester (hell freshmen year). I usually go down to WV in October, well he signed up for this stupid program that takes up two weekends in October, some like test thingy, where you take pills and sleep over night and they give you money. There is a chance they may pick him and well, that definitly means I cant go. But why would he do that knowing I really wanted to come up? Then on top of that, when I mentioned it to him and just said whatever, bye, love you, and hung up. He didnt try to compromise anything, or say he still wanted me to come. He just bam, hung up the phone. So whatever I guess. I feel like Im the only one that feels this way to, its rare that he ever asks me to come visit. Come on how good does it get? You have someone willing to drive the length to see you, show some more enthusiasm. Plus after this year, I only have one more year to see a division one game, and you already have to play the lottery to get tickets, so that makes the chances even more rare. I really wanna experience it. I dunno am I being selfish? Because he gets money for doing the program but he already has a job on campus and he makes $400 checks. Isnt that enough? I dunno, maybe Im looking at this from the wrong perspective. It just erks me cuz it feels like I gotta work/ be patient to get what I want, and I always give up what Im doing to do something for him. I need to stop being so nice.

Oh well 15 minutes and its off to Methods, I hate that classes professor.

Okay, lemme make this quick cuz I gotta cram study for three tests today and My dad, Mrs. Cheryl, Nana, and Floyd are coming up for a bit so yeah. Man, my classes are starting to get reaally HARD. I mean, my classes have always been challenging but during the test, and classes in Method I just kept saying to myself "This shit is HARD!". Like I scored "okay" on my social psych test which had alotta applied questions, even tho the score was okay, it wasnt as good as I wanted it to be. And well, I dont wanna talk about Methods. I better get a tutor...quick, AND I gotta study these questions inside out. Im not to thrilled about the research part of psychology, I think Im pretty sure I dont wanna go into that sub-field (bettcha thats where you get most of your money -_-)
Well Im alittle down but Im not outta the game!

As for this weekend, we ended up going to the step show after party, and can you believe I danced??! lol I know, I couldnt help it there were a few songs in there that I couldnt resist, and it wasnt that bad. Before we went we drank some southern comfort and bacardi shots (yuck, I hate taking shots) it didnt do to much for me. I guess its good to know Im not going to be an alcoholic, because we did everything we could to try and cover up that AWFUL taste. We went next door and asked some neighbors (Sharnice and Brittany met when we first moved in) for a blender. He let us borrow it to! So sweet and when we brought it back he asked us...what were we REALLY making? ANd we could only stand there trying to make up something, he just smiled. So anywho at the party, all the fraternities and sororities were there doing their little party walks and what not. Oh my goodness some of them frat boys......oh wow....I must say...and them QUES...oh my, they weeeeere sexy. Its okay to look right? Even though I'd rather not get touched. XD I wish I brought my camera so I could get them doing there party lines, and the sorority that Brittany wanted to join ended up winning. Thats good ^_^

Oh yeah and I heard the boys calmed down this party although I saw some guys being nasty. THey said last years Ques were touching girls cooches, licking them, picking them up and pumping them. Picking them up and putting making them put thier cooches in their face, doing handstands into girls cooches. Oh my...o_O

After that we got back at like 2:30 and Sharnice was on the phone with some guys. We kept messing with them by asking questions like "when boys skeet does it make a sound?" Sharnice asked them if they were going to come up and they said they might. One of them was suggestive about it....uuuhh lol. It was funny though we were cracking jokes and laughing. We were talking about this one song (I ought ta let you listen Vic) its a reggae song with some girl and at some point I guess she is having sex, and it sounds really funny...and disgusting/ actually I cant stand that song its awkward o.O; But it never fails the dj always plays it. So we were imitating the high pitched moaning sounds she made, when Sharnice didnt realize they were listening on the phone. lol They must think we are crazy. After she got of the phone with them we realized the place was a mess! Remember my Dad is coming up the next day, so we straighten up and went ta bed, got in bed by 4:30 a.m. So yeah, that was fun...Guess they should have the parties in the hotel more often, looks like Im finally opening up. ^_^

Oh well I gotta study so I will go now and here is a journal entry from the middle of this week.


So the internet is down and I actually wanted to update my journal because I’ve been itching to for some reason. But unfortunately I can’t because the resident internet has been down ever since last night. *sigh* Oh well, so I figured why not type it in here and the copy and paste.

So yeah, yesterday I went on a little side mission. I was determined to find somebody at my school who has been to starscape or who listens to dnb. So I went on “facebook”...( yuck) And looked through the starscape group and I found people that go to West Virginia, West Chest University, LOCK HAVEN UNIVERSITY! (are you serious), Wilmington, Jeresy, Philly anywhere you could think of BUT NOT HERE! And I think it’d be amazing like, to find somebody who went here because I wouldn’t care I’d message them and be like, “WHAT? You went to starscape and you go to Bloomsburg, we should meet?” But not to my surprise I didn’t have any luck and this erked me even more. So I got frustrated and texted Perry and he told me we can only dream about ever meeting someone with our ideal interests.
SO then, to add insult to injury as Im walking to the bus stop with Sharnice and Brittany some guy goes flying by with DNB blasting in his car, and Im dumbfounded…I KNOW the dnb sound…its got that boom kat boom boom kat boom kat boom boom kat beat, and can you believe he just drove by me. Where the HELL does HE stay on campus………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..DAMNIT!!! -___- That really erks me, I just need a little different in my college life and Im dying to go to a rave/show.

So yeah, on to my weekend.

Friday got outta classes went to the gym and saw that I lost two pounds which is good. -_O After that we chilled until it was time for bingo. I WAS PISSED! We had the LAST game, I needed one more I remember it I 27...so Im waiting in my seat on edge cuz its the last game and only ONE person gets the money so you gotta scream on the top of your lungs. It was for $85 and I was rocking in my seat. FInally I hear them call "I twenty" and my heart jumps..."I twenty SIX" and the girl across from me screams BINGO!! I was so pissed!! I lost by ONE point lol I even woke up the next DAY angry. If I woulda won I woulda treated my housemates out to somethin.


As for saturday that was a pj day, we stayed in your jammies and did a walmart trip. Later that night we got ready for a party which was at a Day's Inn. Turns out the party was a bagel fest(accordin to Brittany) except for the few guys that were there. It wasnt very exciting we only paid 10 cents cuz we got there early....Well actually not, we kinda got lost in the middle of the woods where we had NO service, no lights, no anything. Brittany was getting scared. LUckly Shay convinced the girl to let us in after 10:30 for ten cents so yeah not much of a loss, but we laughed at some of the drunk girls and Brittany and Sharnice danced alittle.

I thought I'd be able to get outta the other party next weekend, because I have no money but Sharnice offered to pay for ME and Brittany's tickets. Its gonna be held by the Kappa's after the step show so this should be interesting. I did wanna see the step show but its $15 and I cant afford that. ;_; Maybe next year?

Oh yeah, poor Franky kicked the bucket, Sharnice happened to notice while we were in my room. So they both updated their status' saying "RIP Franky, you will be missed by 303"...or..."Bloom is getting real REAL, I cant believe Franky is gone" lol people started asking who Franky was XD, they would just say I dont wanna talk about it. So after that Brittany sang a song for Franky and proceeded to roll all over the floor screaming "MA BABY!...WHY THEY TAKE HIM!!! AAAAH!!" Sharnice pouring him in the toilet cuz I dont like messing with dead stuff and well we said goodbye. So now we most likely may have a ghost in our apartment. lol I think I wanna get other fish, even tho it was a pain bringing it back and forth I liked having one.

R.I.P. Franky, its a shame you werent able to finish college and get that bachelors degree, you will be missed.*sob*

Yup can you believe me, Antoinette, who didnt give a damn about her grades in highschool as long as I didnt fail. Can you believe that I got a scholarship that pays my tuition? Miracles do happen! No I just actually did my work hee :p All I gotta do to keep it is keep my GPA up and alittle community service. THe women's center counts.

Yup, and I cheated and checked my weigh and I dropped two pounds. Went to the womens center today, the gym, ahhh my schedule is starting to kick my ass.

Oh well, Ima practice hooping and going to bed gotta get up at 7 tomorrow.

So yeah, I had my first session at the women's center andI love it already. This stuff is up my ally. The sessions are 6-9 on Tuesdays and Thursday and by the time I complete the training at the end of the semester I can help out there. ^_^

At the end of the session these two girls asked me if I needed a ride back up to the apartments and I got in. hhhmm Dunno if it was the smartest thing to do but I did it anyway, and was prepared to jump out at any moment lol. I know I know, but you hear stuff like that in the news. They seemed nice and I think one of them might be gay? lol she just seems alittle guyish, but she offered me a ride every day so I guess that could work?

Um, we sat in the kitchen and had a decent conversation with our housemate, thats rare but she is nice. OH yeah and Sunday we cooked!! We had Baked Mac and Cheese...so good and I doing everything in my power to keep me from going in there and destorying it. We made Fried chicken, broccoli, cornbread, and banna pudding (which is pretty good). Brittany's cousin who practically lives here by now invited her two roommates. But when Brittany found out (from her cousin) that the one roommate said she was only coming for the chicken. Brittany UNinvited her and was ready to argue with her on the phone, because of the rude statement. I just had to shake my head and laugh.

Btw how bout the Mtv awards? That sucks for Kanye, and the girl Taylor. Lady Gaga, is wooow? The Michael Jackson Tribute was very nice, I think I wanna see the movie. Uh...what else? OH! I can finally work now!! YES! Oh yeah, and Im contemplating on getting a LED hoop by next year if I get good with my hooping skills for starscape. Those things can be pricey but we'll see if I actually deserve one by summer time.

OH yeah, then there is a party on Saturday...Damnit ;>_> sometimes those things can be uncomfy but I wanna go just so I can get a couple of laughs...I dunno we will see...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH TESTS ON MONDAY~!

So yeah I also forgot to mention that Tuesday I started my sad attempt at dropping some weight and getting fit. I learned that I didnt gain any weight back in the summer, even though I ate like a pig and never went to the gym. Yup still 180 lol, Im still chucky though :p But thats better than 195. =) Brittany gained all her weight back and then some and felt bad, I tried cheering her up but I know how much that can suck. She doesnt look how much she weighs anywho...lucky

I almost was struck with Karma when I realized my phone dropped outta my pocket on the bus. I ran to the bus stop and luckly both buses came back after one after another and I checked both to find that my phone was in a seat...someone moved it though. Its a piece of shit anyway who would WANT it? But then again, this is a seriously honest school. People can leave 10 cell phones on a table walk away and no one will touch them. Believe me I've observed it everywhere....But yeah I figured it was karma from that DAMN umbrella, good thing I didnt lose it. lol

You know when I picked up the umbrella and went into class cuz I was debating on turning it in to lost in found, or just waiting until someone mentioned it. Some girl came up behind me and was like "I love your umbrella its so cute!" and I was like "OH!..eh heh heh heh" ^_^;; lol. Im so paranoid oh well....

As for the apartment life? Never been sweeter, its something hilarious here everyday. We were gonna go to the Kappa party tomorrow but Brittany is kinda depressed about not being to join the sorority cuz of her GPA(her and ALOT of other girls o_O yeah you gotta have a okay GPA to get into those things). So I guess we might go see that Madia Movie which looks like its gonna be hilarious. :p

AAAhh My UTERUS!!! And Im in my towel I need to get dressed <_<;;

I just had to post a entry today cuz its 9/9/09 and when will that ever happen again? :p

Today I found a umbrella...<_< a really nice umbrella its got different color poka dots and its HUGE and when you push the button it makes a powerful FOOMP!! I learned how to hoop with my shoulders in as of today, even though I look like a t-rex/slug and uh.....I dunno yup yup JUST GOT OUTTA THE SHOWER!!

Welllllllllllllll Im home. Yeah, how the hell did that happen? I didnt really see that coming BUT oh well.

The reason why I am home is because Brittany turned 21 this past Thursday, we went out and all that jazz. (Our house mate came as well) But this Saturday her family was throwing her and her siblings a birthday cook out. So On Tuesday Brittany asked me about the cookout whether or not I was going. I looked at her like "what cookout?" cuz I had no clue, she told me she thought I knew about it already. So I told her sure I would go. In the back of my mind I had an idea that her parents were picking her up before I was even invited. (even though I'd rather not spend the night at her house that weekend.) Well it turned out I guess her parents were never coming to get her so I guess she already told them I was giving them a ride home before the fact which made me sort of stop. Cuz a couple of days later she asked if I was driving. How are you already making plans before asking me? BUt it didnt matter cuz I had to come home anyway to get some important mail.

Apparently I (and half of the school) was selected for verification, so I can not get finical aid, find out whether I get a scholarship, or workstudy until thats complete. We sent in the papers but I they sent them back saying something wasnt signed. So while I was in school, me, mom, dad, everyone tried getting in contact with my Nana, because thats where my mail goes. But shes no where in sight... Which ERKED me even more, because she likes to disappear without notice all the time. Daddy made this big scene about going to Nana's thats why I currently have the key. So no one had access to the house cuz she wasnt home. Well to make a long story short, I had to get the mail myself and it turned out the shit was ELECTRONICALLY signed. Those doofs -_-;

But yeah, so we leave Saturday I decide Im gonna come back home and go back up to philly to go to the bbq around 9ish that way I could go out with the girls. But by the time I got home I didnt feel like doing much of anything so I stayed home. I know I guess Im a bad friend but I didnt feel like driving up there. Now I get a call saying they are going to Shampoo tonight and STILL I dont feel like driving up there, even a day later. Plus I gots nothing to wear, and right now I'd much prefer a rave. Brittany's original idea was to go to a strip club but you have to be 21 to get in so that went out the door. So yeah that makes two events I've missed with them but I guess I can make it up in college.


Talking about college I love the new apartments I gotta post pictures the rooms are huge, the space is huge and it didnt cost much more than I expected. I have plenty of room to hoop in my room, and Ive learned how to do isolations..Im not that good but I can do it, and Im practicing hooping with my shoulders in. As for classes, they are gonna be extremely hard especially methods and social psych. But Im like "bring it on!". I actually started looking into some grad schools.

As for Sharnice, and especially Brittany they have been hilarious to live with so far. I can tell we are gonna have a fun semester. We plan on shooting a cribs video in our apartment. But one thing I do shake my head on is their ability to adjust, Brittany is much worse. I guess because they have lived in Philly they have never been around a person of another race. Our fourth roommate is white, so they may say things like "white girl" and then catch themselves. Which the whole white girl thing cracks me up cuz the moment someone white says "that black girl" the whole room stops and everyone is offended. Sharnice even said "white girl" in the car after we all went out to dinner. I saw our roommate kinda look over at her. I dunno she is only living with us this semester then shes graduating and Brittany's cousin is moving in. But me and Sharnice had to explain to Brittany that our roommate might feel alittle awkward. FIrst of all shes with 3 other girls that know each other better, and at that we are a different race so she might stay to herself. *sigh* They both can be so closed minded yet they contradict themselves at the same time and this is our big difference, but they still are my friends.

What else? Oh yeah I'm begging Perry to get me some tickets to the WV game in October I HAVE to go once before graduating. I currently have my Mom's car in school because the boat is sick right now. ;_; I miss my boat. Uh....Im pretty much staying in the rest of the night and leaving tomorrow afternoon. I rather be up in college actually but at least I got to come down here for free cuz I didnt feel bad charging them $20 each to come home. I usually am really nice when it comes to gas money, but I said fuck it.


Oh well thats, that. I need to update more often cuz Im feel like Im leaving stuff out.

I absolutely love it up here everything looks amazing. Unfortunately I cant type the details. I got here yesterday and I wish classes werent starting yet. Im gonna have a blast up here. :)

Alright, well I found it really odd going to a club on Sunday, I thought clubs dont usually open on Sundays but whatever. :p

After I got off from work around 7 came back home and chit chatted with Mum for a bit before getting dressed and left for Philly. Got to Bee's house at about 9 and came in. I've NEVER had a dog afraid of me before lol, her dog Seven saw me and ran up the steps. o_O So I went up into Brittany's room and everybody was there. It was Brittany's cousin (I forget her name, I only heard it once), Sana, Sharnice, and Brandy. We sat upstairs and talked and drank a little bit before heading out.

So after circling around the block a million times we found parking. I was also verbally abused but some crazy guy there too. We saw the line to get it. MAN was it long.(The black hole doesnt have a line ;_;) They told me it was the last party before everyone went back to school thats why it was so packed. So we finally get in and wow. It was a pretty nice looking place. I saw the foam room but of course we didnt get in. They had a couple other rooms to and this huge disco ball.(The black hole doesnt look like the either ;_;) Brian, Brittany's brother was there to. Apparently he thought my looking at him was "checking him out" cuz he wanted to talk to me after we left. Hes actually is kinda cute(nice body to lol), but he aint my type. I dunno if I should tell Brittany that or not.

I found while i was there I was a bit disgusted, by the dancing. How do girls not wanna be called hoes when the are rubbing their asses on some guy they barely know? Or letting them take turns banging the crap out of em, especially to that b-more club music. I dont get it, I guess cuz its not my thing. I guess I shouldnt knock it but sometimes I think our generation is so damn corrupted. I also had to dance (the rare times I did) against the wall to protect my arms/bum/body from getting grabbed from some random guy trying to put their peepee on me. I dont do that... But other than that I had an amazing time! I saw people there from college and one person there from my highschool. As we were leaving Brittany had to remind Sana, and her cousin to give me gas money. I completely forgot, damn....niggas trying to get over on people. They got a ride from someone else after the party was over anywho. So it was me Bee, and Shar. We went to Wawa and was talking, laughing and catching up. We are gonna have alotta fun this semester. XD

Um, in other news, yesterday was my last day at work and its SO damn awkward when older guys try to hit on you. Eeeww this old guy from Africa thinks I was gonna call him so I could ride on a plane with him back to his hometown. Are you kidding me? IM 20! Another guy left me his number...prolly in his 30's, and some other guy tried to get my number. He was actually my age. UHH! Leave me alone. That was the only thing that really pissed me off about that job, that and the employees. Another guy, the hood rat tried getting me to "come over his house to chill" TWICE. Nigga, Im not stupid. -_- I already know what he was up to. BUT other than that, I did enjoy my time there with the others.

Tomorrow Ima sort through my shit, and well my lappy battery is gonna die. SO GOTTA go! I love laying in my bed with my lappy! ^_^